Lately we have been trying to figure out what would be best for our kids as far as their education is concerned. We want the best for them in every aspect, but I can only hyper focus and stress irrationally about one subject at a time. My focus used to be housing and therefore incessant watching of HGTV, but I found my dream home, so now I have moved on. And, no, we haven't bought it; we don't have the money. But never to worry, I am still decorating it beautifully and making precious Norman Rockwell memories with my family in that dream home as we speak. Anyway, back to the important concern for today - schooling. I have been obsessing about where my children may go to school. Note that we have not sold our home, not even shown it, so my obsessions are a bit premature. However, I keep imagining someone walking in to buy our house at the not perfect time, which would leave me transferring my children to a new learning environment during a school year. What's more, the learning environments are all getting rezoned in York (where that dream house is located) for the upcoming school year. AND elementary school only goes through 4th grade. My oldest kiddo is currently in 3rd. They instead have two middle schools (5th and 6th, then 7th and 8th) for students to endure before those high school years. I know the big wigs at the local school district have their reasons for all of this, and I know they just built the most awesome HS in the state in York, and I also know they are building a fabulous new elementary school as we speak. But it's just too much change for my little overworked brain to comprehend.
So I have decided to seriously consider homeschooling for our transition to take the pressure off me and the kids. Michael and I have differing opinions about what would be the correct path for our family, but we both agree it could be really good for our older child to have a year of nurturing transition. The initial plan was to move and have me start substitute teaching in their new school. Michael wants to stick to that plan. I prefer to throw all caution to the wind and keep my sweet boys at home with me. Luckily, we are willing to give the decision some time and we are both keeping our minds open. Really. I promise.
The point of all this rambling is this. I am exhausted. I have thought about this issue an unhealthy amount of time. I have become self absorbed - again. I talk to people about me and forget to ask how they are doing. I can't let it go, and it is getting to be too much. And so I have put it up for prayer. I am handing it all over to God. Which is what we are to do always; I just prefer to keep trying my way first.
Philippians 4:4-7 Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice!! Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Jesus Christ.